If my best friend sees this, she’ll hate me!!
Okay… I don't think I've ever felt as torn as I do today. I'm sitting in front of my pile of clothes, trying on some lingerie for the private party this weekend – and my heart is definitely racing. My best friend is throwing the party, everything's super relaxed… or so I thought. But then there's him. My little, way-too-secret crush, who's also invited. And that would be okay – if my best friend didn't have the exact same crush. It couldn't get any more awkward. So I'm trying to figure out which one screams “I'm cool, totally chill, I don't have a crush at all”… while, of course, I'm the complete opposite. I turn around, adjusting the straps. My heart leaps every time I imagine him looking at me on Saturday. In between, I explain why the whole thing is throwing me off balance, how dangerous it is that my friend likes the same guy, and why I still wish he'd notice me. Girl next door vibes, thrills, way too many thoughts – and the question of whether the right choice could change everything.
